I am a lump of coal.
I am lifeless and dull.
I have sharp edges
that were caused by
pieces of me being chipped away.
I was tossed into pile of dirt
where I lie hidden.
I have been here for a while
and it’s a dark place.
I don’t recognize where I am.
I hope to be found
before it is too late
and I turn into dust.
I was a diamond
but my shine was never seen.
Nobody took the time to polish me.
It was easier to overlook me
and settle for cheap paste
that looked good at first glance.
Cheap requires no effort.
No need to shape and hone.
It’s available to anyone
who will pay for company
and is looking for easy.
Anyone who can’t see the difference
between precious
and common
and is willing to accept trash
instead of class.
When the paste turns cloudy
I will be shining
from a distance
and you will be blinded
by the light
that you could never see.
I have a friend who used to always say “all that glitters isn’t gold.” She was right and you are too!! Shine on Laurel.
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Hello,
I’ve nominated you for the Leibster Award…
http://robertmgoldstein.com/2016/03/30/the-liebster-award/
If yours is an award free blog please accept the nomination as an expression of my esteem.
Rob Goldstein
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Thank you! I accept all awards. I think they’re an honor. Again, thank you so much! 🙂
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I’m glad that you like awards….:)
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I Iove your writing. It sounds a lot like I feel…
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Thank you…and I’m sorry. It’s not a good way to feel, is it? 😦
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No, it really sucks. And it gets real old. Especially when they have a smart wisecrack coming out of their mouth.
You must have mor patience than me….
First one was 7 years.
This one is going on 25.
And he’s a control freak. A emotional and financial abuser. And I’ve about had it. You know when the dam is about to break…..;)
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I’m not sure Loser was a control freak…I do know that I never had any idea about the finances…not even how much money he made…nor how many checks he was writing to that WTC.
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I know how much money he makes. I just don’t know where it goes. It goes mostly to his toys that are expensive..
And my name is not on the checking account. He keeps changing his password too.
I’m just getting tired.
I don’t like cooking anymore…and I used to love that. Probably because he insults the cook. And thats a no no in my book.
My life is lovely.
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Loser would have had a stroke if I had asked him for any of his passwords. Losers life is lovely too. I sure hope he gets what he deserves….
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I don’t know if Loser was a control freak. I do know that I never knew how much money he made…nor did I know how many checks he was writing to that WTC.
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I hope you are doing much better now.
How long ago did this happen?
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Well, he had been cheating on me throughout our entire marriage, I think. If not physically, then mentally and emotionally.
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Dam I hate this phome. It is all I have for connection to the world. I don’t know if it just blew away my last comment or not.
I notice on the internet, people.are saying their phones are typing weird things..words too. So..im not crazy yet. Lol.
I had dentures at 45? Because he didnt get my dental taken care of like it should have been. But….he did buy a 60,000.00 truck. Priorities I guess….
And my dentures broke 5 years ago. Still don’t have new ones. But…..he did get a bank loan three times. And get a new vehicle. He got the vehicle because he thought our car was on the last payment. Silly him….they were fixing to send him the other book of payments. So it was only half paid. Ha ha ha.
What a idiot. So now, this new jeep is 140.00 more a month.
And I guess I wont get dentures.
But his teeth mattered. He had them taken care of.
Who wants a toothless person???? People have reactions to them..like ewwww….look at that. I’ve seen it and heard it. And see what people write.
My life was always complicated it seems.
Maybe they were tests I don’t know. I’m beginning to fail this one. I feel alone.
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He’s a selfish narcissist…..it’s all about him. You should go get your teeth fixed and have the dentist bill your dead-beat sociopath!
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Look up the word gaslighter. That is part of him. Most people do not know this word. Even therapists.
I ran across this accidently.
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I kept reading it but I never knew what it meant either. I’ve learned so much since I started blogging and my vocabulary has increased exponentially. LOL
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Hello again Laurel, just.. by the way, I thought I would tell you that I was chatting a little bit with another blogger friend, and I happened to mention you. We were talking about his situation, where his sociopath ex had manipulated all the children into not having a relationship with him (the dad)… I just sort of mentioned that I had come across two other bloggers with that situation… and he asked me who these bloggers were, and said it could be nice to share stories. That is why I told him about your blog. Now, I will tell you about his blog, too, just in case you want to check it out. I really like this guy and he has supported me a lot, even though now he only posts like once a week, (he has a new fiancee who’s pregnant and all). Anyway, here is a link to his blog, and his latest blog post, which I found quite heartbreaking…… 😦 https://wordpress.com/read/feeds/34871637/posts/973660974
Perhaps you would like to read it, if you have time. I just thought, since he asked about my other bloggies with similar experiences and all.. Hope it was ok for me to mention you..
Hugs!
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Oh, sure! I’ll check him out.
BTW….I’m posting about “Mr. Beautiful.” I was chatting with Sam and I googled older male models….there he was!
Now…it’s play time!
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Oh no… too bad! 😦 I look forward to reading it… i am kinda fallig asleep there though, lol, but will check in again in the morning. G’nite!!
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Exactly! Only an idiot passes up a true diamond for a fake one!
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He’s an idiot! LOL
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We shall call this fantastical poetic Monday, wonderful Laurel. Yes, too often appreciation is abandoned for what is considered more bright and shiny, but the dullness One sees is often merely the reflection of their own dusty self….keep shining…shine bright like a diamond ⭐️
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Thank you. I’m glad you liked it. 🙂
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Hope your day was good to you 😀
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I actually mowed my lawn and washed two loads of clothes. LOL. I’m on a roll.
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You are indeed and writing as well……I can’t even see my lawn yet lol
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Mine was in dire need of mowing but it has been raining so much, the ground was saturated. It was still a bit wet but I got it done. UGH.
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FYI…..You have been found….HELLO, we’re all here…..Nothing wrong with coal, we southern bitches know that basic black and pearls will take us anywhere.
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LOL. My mistake was not realizing Loser was only interested in cheap and easy trash. Damnit! Should have been a gold-digging tramp! LOL
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And we’re smart enough to know the difference between the real thing and fake. LOL
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The first thing I am thought about when reading this was the coal miners daughter, lol. I think because I just heard an interview with her/ Loretta Lynn and how different her life is now but yet she thinks she is the same person. How she had 9 children, but lost 4 and how angry that made her. How she was dragged away from her family as well and how that depressed her, but she was only 14 when married and what a life she had. I bet she would love that poem, it seems like so many people have their own tale – so similar but so different.
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I watched that, too. She’s a hoot.
I remember watching the movie they made about her. It reminded me of me. After she and Doo got married, she said “I’m not going out there when all those people know what we’ve been in here a’doin’.” Hilarious!
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That was good movie. She is one tough cookie, just like you.
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Like I used to be…. 😦
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It is a proven scientific fact, those who have certain traits can be knocked down and will eventually get back to those traits. Ex: Crabby mean people might get soft when some huge life event happens, but they go back to it after everything settles. So if you were a tough cookie, you will be again, you just have to heal up from this awful life event.
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No kidding. I didn’t know that. So, I guess I’ll get stronger and Loser will turn back into the asshole he always was? LOL
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Yes, all will karma resolve.
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You are a diamond who brilliance was never appreciated.
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I was overshadowed by “God.” LOL
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Diamonds are forever… and the hardest material there is, I believe(?), so there is some good strength there…!! I love the feeling of this, it is melancholy but there is strength, too! 🙂
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Diamonds are the hardest substance known to man….so far.
I’m glad you enjoyed! 🙂
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You will find your shine, not someone else…
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Thank you. I hope so. 🙂
BTW…I tried to “follow” you a long time ago and somehow, it didn’t let me. 😦
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I think during that time I was in private mode, it’s not longer private but I haven’t posted lately so not much to miss 🙂
Yes you will. It took me a very long time to realize that fact. I had to understand getting validation whether it be from men or others was not a measure of my worthlyness. My self worth came from within. The abuse from these men have changed our way of life. I know for myself a simple thing such as dancing has me terrified. Why ? Because I’ve come to associate that with someone who has loose morals. And that’s just not right. Dancing is a normal activity just like any other.
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I know. I really don’t need the validation of a man….I just need to remember my value and who I used to think I was.
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